Selmirov život

Moje ime je Selmir Zahirović, rođen sam 4. aprila 1991. godine u Zvorniku, Bosna i Hercegovina. Moja porodica je preko 100 godina živela u obližnjem selu Papraća, gde smo imali zemlju, kuću, štalu, životinje, od čega smo živeli. Moj otac je bio armirač i radio je kao armirač u građevini. 6 mjeseci nakon mog rođenja kao trećeg sina u porodici, počeo je rat u Bosni i Hercegovini. Moja porodica je pobjegla sa svoje zemlje u Tuzlu, gdje smo kao izbjeglice živjeli u napuštenoj kući. Moj otac je bio ranjen i jedva preživio, sa posljedicama 80% invaliditeta. U tom periodu njegove borbe za život i poslije, pamtim ga kao jakog, čovjeka koji se zajedno sa mojom mamom borio da ne budemo gladni.

U tom stanju kakav je išao je i radio. Od ono malo što smo doneli od kuće kupio je kravu i napravio štalu, našao zemlju, posejao je i obrađivao i nastavio kao da ništa nije bilo. S vremena na vrijeme samo bi pao, ali bi onda ustao i nastavio dalje. Zato nismo bili gladni dok su mnogi oko nas bili. Kada je rat stao, otvorio je trgovinu i počeo da štedi kako bi kupio zemljište u Tuzli i počeo graditi kuću. U međuvremenu sam imao povredu, slomio sam desnu ruku i u periodu detinjstva imao sam 3 operacije na desnoj ruci, posle kojih nisam mogao da ispravim prste, nisam mogao da se rukujem u skoli, deca su me ponizavala, tukla, odbijala, naučio sam da se borim i branim, ali sam imao nesigurnosti i mentalne blokade.

Po završetku srednje škole sam počeo da radim i uvek sam želeo da se odvojim i imam svoj dom, pa sam uzeo kredit i kupio stan gde pola prihoda dajem za otplatu kredita i počeo sam dosta da treniram da pokrijem svoje nedostatke. Ali sa svojim malim primanjima od 600€, gde pola dajem da otplatim dug bez mogućnosti da uštedim i bez prevazilaženja svojih nedostatka i nesigurnosti, nisam uspeo da uštedim i da se socijalizujem kao i da oporavim ruku, Javljam Vam se iz tog žaljenja što ne mogu da uštedim i zato što sam formirao to čvrsto mišljenje u kojem vjerujem da mi Yoga može pomoći da oporavim ruku i um i pronađem svoj mir i iz želje za ulaganjem i odlaskom na Yoga retritove kao da i kroz vrijeme postanem možda Yoga instruktor.

EN:

My name is Selmir Zahirović, I was born on April 4, 1991 in Zvornik, Bosnia and Herzegovina. My family had lived in the nearby village of Papraća for over 100 years, where we had land, a house, a stable, animals, which is what we lived on. My father was an armourer and worked as an armourer in construction. 6 months after my birth as third son in family, the war in Bosnia and Herzegovina started. My family fled their property to Tuzla, where we lived as refugees in an abandoned house. My father was wounded and barely survived, with the consequences of 80% disability. During that period of his struggle for life and afterwards, I remember him as a strong man who, together with my mother, fought for us not to go hungry.

He went and worked. From the little we had brought from home, he bought a cow and built a stable, found land, sowed and cultivated it, and continued as if nothing had happened. From time to time, he would just fall but also get up again and keep going. That's why we weren't hungry while many around us were. When the war stopped, he opened a shop and started saving so that he could buy some land in Tuzla and start building a house. In the meantime, I had an injury, a fracture in my right arm. and in the period of childhood, 3 operations on my right hand, after which I could not straighten my fingers, I could not shake hands at school, the children humiliated me, beat me, rejected me, I learned to fight and defend myself, but I had insecurities and mental blocks.

After graduating from high school, I started working and I always wanted to separate and have my own home, so I took out a loan and bought an apartment where I give half of my income to pay off the loan and I started to train a lot in order to cover my shortcomings. But with my small income of €600, where I give half to pay off my debt and my shortcomings and insecurities I failed to save and socialise and to recover my hand, out of regret that I can't save money and because I formatted a strong opinion where I believe that Yoga can help me to receiver my hand and mind and find my peace and out of forminga desire to invest and to go to a Yoga retreats as well as to become through time maybe a Yoga instructor.