I am Sasha Brown, from Eswatini. I am 31 years old with a 10 year old son.

I'm am finding it very hard to find a decent job,since I only have a form 5 certificate. I did not have the funds to further my education, and I fell pregnant straight after high school.

I thought he was the right man for me I was young and naive. He was abusive so I needed to leave,my son has been currently taken away from me because I am unable to provide for his needs,I hardly see him and it hurts because he always tells me he wants to be with me, I am alone and drowning in my thoughts.

I was rated in high-school by someone I don't know leaving school. I couldn't tell my parents or the police because my dad was abusive. I am starting to feel like I was brought to this world to suffer and it breaks my heart. 

That is why I am thinking of suicide. 
The funny part is even if I commit suicide, people won't find my body for a few weeks.

I am in this position because of trusting people will help me and all they don't is take advantage of me.😭